Midnight [Poem]

 

Hello there ..

From time to time I will be posting some of my personal writings/poems or as I would call them .. scraps
Yes I am not confident in what I write because most of the time they reflect a situation that I faced, or my inner thoughts or feelings. Thus not everyone can get what I am trying to put forward.
However, sharing is caring right?
So starting today I will posting my poems occasionally and I hope your feed back will help me improve :)


Here we go.. this one goes by the name MIDNIGHT and it is inspired by BEAST's Midnight

I wrote this poem four years after rejecting a person I liked. After that day I felt guilty for four years and I was able to get in touch with that person during the midnight only to find out he moved on and he is happy. This guilt was lifted like magic off of my shoulder and I was able to see a whole new world out there for me!


Although I am seeing the world in different colors already
I can't deny my attachment to the old me who I once lived
While thinking that the past held me back
I kept on moving backward with each step I took
I believed that I was moving toward perfection
But I was standing on the same step all along
On the thought of rejection, I saw a world that I never encountered
In this unexpected midnight, this thought of me was changed.
I am gonna sleep tonight in this silent midnight with regret
I will play the record of memories once again as I sink in my own lies
So please twinkling stars, lend me your shoulders to cry on
Shine your lonely light on me so that I can see through the darkness
Teach me how to believe in falling down
Teach me, how to beautifully die out
Even if this night was so sad
With your light dancing on the rhythm of my words
Create a fake midnight for me
Let me forget who I was and what I became
Tell me that I was living a nightmare
That I was locked in a reality that I didn't realize
Even if this midnight was filled with regret
Shining  moon let me forget the past
Show me that there is another future out there
Hold my hand and guide me back to the innocence I once had
Tell me that the angel I burnt in hell can once be reborn
That the devil I reflected on the mirror was an illusion
That only this midnight I am living a fiction
Maybe on the thought that this reality never was true
A new me and you will be born
Even on the thought of regret in this midnight
I want to sleep again
Maybe you and I lived a lie that I created
But in this midnight, these memories shall fade
Slowly as the night pass by, you will move along
Slowly these regrets should be erased along with me
Everything filled with tears should be burned off
Just this midnight,
'cause I am gonna sleep tonight in this midnight..